Three Years

What does three years mean to you?

Half of your primary school life? Three quarts of your secondary school life? This is from an academic point of view. Three years could also be a short term mission trip to a needy country. It could be the gap between you and your younger sibling. Without a doubt, three years is a long period of time. You can grow quite a bit with three years worth of experience. Three years of life.

I've been thinking lately. How do you measure maturity in a person? Is maturity based on the age of an individual? Or is it based on the experiences one has gone through? I believe with reason that maturity is not completely dependent on age but is heavily dependent on the experiences we encounter in life. Different experiences shape our very soul. They influence the shape our unique and individual character takes as we grow up. For example, a person learns resilience after being through several setbacks in life. When life knocks him down, he picks himself up and thus becomes more resilient to setbacks because of the experience he has gained. Someone of the same age who has had a carefree life would not be able to cope with setbacks as well as this man. Thus, age is not a reliable measure for the maturity in a person. Experience is.

Is it possible then to meet someone younger who shares the same level of maturity as you do? Definitely. Maturity isn't measured by age but by experience. It is indeed possible to find someone who has been through similar experiences as you have in their shorter time on Earth. Cases of people who are more mature than others in their age group are sadly largely women. I guess its was just God's idea to make girls more mature than guys are.

Just some musings of mine. My bed calls me.

I am,

twistedshaft.

Post Prelim Period

The title of this post has plosive alliteration! (I think) Haha! Thats what you get when you've studied too much. Alliteration, I believe, is a term we use in Literature.

Anyway, its been almost a month since I've posted and i've decided to post an update while I'm waiting for a friend to send a document to me for printing.

Life is pretty much just study, watch show, sleep, and the occasional outing to ensure the soul doesn't die away from excessive exposure to study materials. Prelims are over and all thats left to do now is to mug like a dog (quoting a close friend). Shows are what keep me alive. The Mentalist and Family Guy are the shows I'm currently watching these days. Great stuff. Therapeutic to those who feel a little of themselves die inside when they study for too long. Song-writing has hit a brick wall. Can't seem to come up with anything lately. I've been reading articles on the web regarding song-writing but they don't really help much. I guess song-writing is really a very personal thing. A raw expression of emotion through the outlet of music and lyrics. Although some techniques can be taught or learnt, song-writing is a very personal thing, something we have to figure out ourselves.

I've been thinking a lot lately about what I want to do with my future. I want to get into medical school. Being a surgeon has always been the dream job. You get paid for saving lives, for doing something meaningful. What could be better? However, being a doctor comes with many strings attached. The 7 year training period, the 5 year working bond. 12 years... I'll be 30 when I'm done with it all. The job is also hugely demanding. Doctors work long hours. Work hours aren't always within the everyday 9 to 5 that office workers have. People can fall sick at any random time in a day and doctors have to be at the ready at all times. I start to think to myself.

Can I handle this kind of life?

Where I'm a doctor and nothing else. My friends are doctors because I don't have time to maintain friendships with people outside my profession. I practically live in the hospital.

Can I start and support a family under these conditions?

Financial support is pretty much covered, but can I be there for my family when they need me? Will long surgeries replace birthday parties? Or will my multiple patients eventually replace my family members?

Will I enjoy such a life?

A life where holidays are limited. A life filled with mostly work and no play.

So many questions pass through my mind as I look forward into the future as a doctor. To me, it is crucial to know why I want to do something. If I want to be a doctor I need to be sure why I want to be one. Only by being completely sure can I give myself fully over to my goal and work wholeheartedly towards it. My resolve is weakened by uncertainty.

Well, its getting late and I have school later in the morning.

Before I go, I need to pray for someone.

Dear God,

Please bless this someone as she takes an important paper later this morning. She only really wants to pass this paper but I pray that you'll help her complete the paper to the best of her ability. I pray that you grant her peace of mind, a good memory, and I pray that you'll be beside her every step of the way as she pens down her answers. Lord, grant her a quick mind and a quick hand to allow her to pen down everything she has crammed in her head. She has done her part. I pray that Lord you will let her examiners see that.

Once again Lord, calm her senses.

In Jesus name,

Amen

I am,

twistedshaft.

Random musings of today.

Today was pretty uneventful. I was mostly doing chem revision for the entire day. Only really covered about 3 chapters. Not very productive. I kept getting distracted with song-writing. I can't help it! When a tune comes into my head and inspiration hits for possible lyrics I have to drop everything and pick up my guitar. Quickly pen down the lyrics and jam with my guitar, then record it down in Garage Band so I don't forgot what I've just written. If I don't drop everything, whatever I've just thought of would be lost and the inspiration expired. Sigh. Music is both a blessing and a curse.

Anyways, I managed to pen down another verse and pre-chorus to a song I've been working on for the past week. I named it "Weekend Girl". Close dude friends I've been talking to would be able to accurately guess the inspiration behind that song. Been talking about it for most of the past week. Haha:) I only need to wrap up the song up with a verse and a nice outro. Need more material to finish writing this song. Its a work in progress. Gotta see what happens this weekend I guess. I also managed to write the first half of a new song that came to me in the afternoon. This one I tentatively named "Uncertainty". The main idea behind it was how we can never be a 100% sure about the choices and decisions we make in life and how "Uncertainty" can be a real pain in the ass when we hit forks in the road of life. Still waiting to be inspired to write the other parts of the song:)

Have I mentioned that I love song-writing? So much that I'm almost addicted to it? It was one of the reasons why I stopped blogging. Whenever I felt emo or had something I wanted to get out of me I'd pick up my guitar and use those emotions to write a song. They might not all be great songs but at least they help to release cranial pressure, and I get a sense of achievement after using those emotions to create something. Not so emo when I'm done:) To me, song-writing is like story telling. It most of the time incorporates a little poetry and music. Its basically like singing a poem, and its great fun and sometimes frustrating to find words that rhyme or to think of interesting tunes.

I probably should get back to chem:( Also got math tuition tomorrow morning. Sigh. Back to prelim revision.

Maybe i'll post up the lyrics of my songs when I complete them. Digitize them so they'll live forever! Haha:)

I am,

twistedshaft.

I'm Back!

Damn, its been a while. The last post was months ago.

I practically gave up blogging actually. I always say that you only blog when you're full of emotions. Either you're really happy or really emo. Otherwise, they'd be no reason to blog. Nothing interesting to pen (type) down for the world to read. I've recently decided to visit my blog again, just for old times sake and I've realized that my posts have been really emo. So emo that even I was shocked. Haha:) Oh well, I'm back to lighten the tone. To blog when I can. Can't promise my future posts will all be cheery and joyful. Now, that wouldn't be reality, would it? Like I always say and will say again. We only blog when filled with emotions. Blogging is an outlet for all those bottled up emotions and I tend to use this blog for that same purpose.

Here's to more, and hopefully happy posts,

twistedshaft.