CAN NEVER SHAKE THIS
To who it might concern, I am sorry, truly. I wish i could tell you all this personally, but chances are so minimal they might even be non-existent. Therefore, I must write this all down. In hope that they will finally let my mind rest.
The question of:
What if?
Meaningless yes, but i can't seem to shun these thoughts of what could have been.
Question flood my head every moment of my day.
What did i do wrong?
Everything was going fine wasn't it?
What went wrong?
Maybe I was too hasty?
A tad bit rash?
How did I not match up?
Why didn't it work?
Is it just me?
......
So many loose ends. questions unanswered.
There isn't a moment I don't wish for a restart button that i could push. Maybe i could change everything. Undo all i had done. Then all these questions could disappear and leave my troubled mind. Wishful thinking.
I guess this world isn't fully made of logic with all these anomalies floating about in the pool of life. The unexplained. Questions without answers. I guess life just isn't easy. An uneven road ridden with treacherous traps and setbacks. I can't seem to be able to see a safe path through this. All I can do is climb hill after hill, hoping to see my destination over the next hill.
I guess it was fun while it lasted. Unfortunately, everything had to be short-lived.
It has changed. I miss it. Miss the times. Now all thats left to remember are the unanswered questions and thoughts of what ifs.
Hoping that one day i'll find my answers,
twistedshaft.
