Its been a long time since I've written a post.
Like I always say, people only blog when their emo, or overcome with emotions.
Most of the time, its when their really down.
Crushed by whatever tormenting them in life.
Yes, I am down.
Well, lets just say down just doesn't quite cover it.
I Still Don't Know Why
Today.
Today I felt alone.
Once again.
Once again I'm greeted by Silence.
Silence.
Silence, my fast growing friend.
14 days.
14 days since your last reply.
14 days.
14 days I've waited beside hope, my old comrade.
Quietness has claimed you.
Leaving behind no trace.
My efforts can't seem to break through.
Loneliness, I embrace.
So take a good look at my face.
A face that smiles, when friends are near.
A heart abandoned, laying to waste.
Hoping to conceal, the tracks of my tears.
I wish I knew why.
Why you had changed so suddenly.
I wish I knew why.
Why you left so abruptly.
Without a warning.
You were gone again.
Without a warning.
I was left alone again.
You just left.
Disappeared.
Vanished.
Without a word.
And I don't know why.
Everyday and Everynight.
I ask myself, what did I do wrong?
I never seem to find an answer.
Only you have the answer.
Its been 2 weeks and I still wait.
I still wait for a sign from you.
Something that will tell me, its over.
That the phase has passed.
And that one I grew to love from before will return.
Will return with all the answers.
All the answers that I have been trying to find.
And all will return to the way it was before.
Before you left without a trace.
I wrote this last night.
They are the thoughts that have been building and accumulating.
Thoughts that accompany me every night as I face insomnia.
Its been 2 weeks.
And I don't know how much more I can take.
twistedshaft.
30/03/09
Just a reply, an answer, or even a word from you can breathe life back into this crumbling body of mine. One small step from you, a big leap for me.
