Had softball training today. A pretty fruitful one. Felt really tired, or "cui", as I would probably say. Legs are gonna ache for the next few days for sure. I always make it a point to learn something new every training I have. I have too few of them for sure cause of choir practices. Today, what I learnt is the importance of being confident and daring. When I see a fast ball coming towards me, I must learn to go all out to field that ball, despite knowing that the chances of me stopping it are pretty low. Going all out and trying for it is what coach wants so I must do it. What I must overcome is the emotional barrier, the hesitation before fielding every ball. Once I've got that down, I should see some improvement in my game.
This new lesson on confidence and being daring really made me think about the situation now. You just going all silent without warning, and me left here confused and alone. I've been doing nothing. Just thinking to myself, keeping to myself, being emotional. Nothing. Maybe I should muster the courage, the confidence and dare to ask you why? Why are you doing this? Why?
Am I really just being the good guy? Giving you the benefit of the doubt? Just stepping back and giving you some space to figure everything out? Or have I been wrong all this while?
Have I just been scared? Hesitant to make a move? Afraid to ask you why?
Sigh. So many unanswered questions. The list grows further.
twistedshaft.
02/04/09
even if I asked, would you answer?
