"You must really not like me. Its evident from the fact that we can barely hold up a friendly relationship for more than a month before you start to pull away again, leaving me confused and alone, at my wits' end trying to figure out why. Why did it turn out this way again, for the second time. Maybe its time you told me the truth. The reason why even a friendship isn't possible between us. You told me that we were friends. I guess you lied."
I really felt like sending this out. A message composed while I was sitting in the car on the way home after dinner. You really have me at my wits' end. The way your words encourage me, giving me evidence to hope for a friendship between us, but then later followed by cold silence, tearing whatever existing hope into pieces. The conflicting actions from you really leave me standing at the edge of a cliff. All it would take would be a small nudge, a light breeze, and off I would go.
I don't understand you. I don't understand why you act out this way. It isn't the first time I've been met with this circumstance, and they're both from you. Why won't you explain yourself? Instead of just staying silent and acting as if nothing had ever happened.
Why?
twistedshaft.
04/04/09
i'm hanging onto the last knot of my rope and i still don't know why...
