Everyone seems to be really emotional lately. Strangely, it kinda makes me feel better to have people to feel down and under with me. I'm really behind with everything. Homework isn't close to half done. I can't seem to focus in choir and softball. Lessons become a bore. Church seems mundane and useless. Procrastination has become a close friend. Along with its lackeys sleep and relaxation.
I feel out of it. Out of sync with my life. Out of sync with the world.
I guess the words of the song ring true.
Breakeven - The Script
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even
Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven... even... no
What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces
They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven even... no
Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm try'na make sense of what little remains ooh
Cos you left me with no love and no love to my name.
I wonder if you're actually doing fine, unaffected by all of this.
All of this, that effortlessly throws me out of sync with everything around me.
I guess when a heart breaks, it don't break even.
twistedshaft.
05/04/09
i'm falling to pieces. with nothing to put me back together.
